But, the natural course of life and intelligence gathering (as we learn & make mistakes) gives us a totally new look at mysteries that once perplexed us. I understand now, the behaviours of people I once was close to - what used to make no sense, now (with learned knowledge) - is as clear as crystal and makes perfect sense. Not all people from our past make sense now - but some do and that I find, (wow!) fascinating. It's almost like re-watching a movie we once loved. Like a childhood favourite, watched again with adult/older eyes. A new place to explore - new knowledge to understand - new scenes to replay.
I learn alot from going back, remembering good times, even poor decisions. Reading my journal, from my early 20's - I see a familar, yet different young lady. I know the importance of journaling, but really - who does it for they're entire life? I have only ever really journaled for smaller portions and then find it hard to do for longer periods. I think blogging, really is the modern version of journaling, hence what alot of us do today.
I think going back - watching an old film, reading an former favourite book, calling an old friend, reading an old journal, even looking at old photo's - can bring more joy than pain.
Sometimes the pain and poor decisions are forgotten before the joy of 20 years prior says 'Hello' (one of my favourite Lionel songs). Then again emotional pain is everywhere and when it come to the past, how do we deal with that? There would never be enough answers for everyone - making a painful emotional memory go away might mean, physically writing & burning - a symbol. OR handing it in and giving it up in your heart to someone higher.✞ I
I think (in the end) we could choose to condemn ourselves for the past or see the decisions we have made, as part of greater journey....a path that leads us to where we are meant to be and what we are meant to learn.
Blessings 2 U All....ƸӜƷ
